When I was a child, all I wanted in life was stability and safety. I wanted routine, nice things, and the security of a full-time job that would provide enough so I didn’t have to count my pennies. I wanted all the things I didn’t have then.
In my 20’s and 30’s, I got exactly what I wanted. I was married, I had a nice house across the street from an elementary school, my life was a routine, and I had security in corporate jobs that I mostly liked, and I had two wonderful little girls. I had everything I wanted, but I was so very unhappy.
In 2013, I ended my marriage and became a single mom of a newly one-year-old and a four-year-old and everything changed. I had to figure out who I was and what made me happy. Really made me happy. Since then, I’ve become a successful entrepreneur, I’ve taken my health (physical, mental, emotional, and energetic) back, tapped back into my spiritual gifts and realized this major shake-up of my life was actually an amazing gift. A damn hard one at times, but a gift none the less.
About a year ago, wanderlust took over and I knew I needed to move. At the time, I thought I wanted to stay in Edmonton and move into a smaller place. To simplify my life here and to start fresh in a new place as my daughters and I live in the house I had with my ex-husband. Well, my house never sold and I took it as a sign that I needed to stay where I was. I needed to do some more inner work and healing before I could walk away with peace and love.
Since then, I’ve focused on healing. I’ve taken a hard look at what makes me “Jen”. My core values, my fears, what excites my passion and triggers my anxiety. I took the time to really go deep and explore all of the nagging beliefs that I’ve had including my need for security, safety, and essentially favoring a life of boredom.
I soon realized that I’ve spent almost my entire life walking away from things that were painful and that I needed to walk bravely forward into things that will light my soul on fire and make my heart dance.
After talking to people, traveling, and finally finding the place where my heart feels like home, I put my house in Edmonton up for sale and asked the Universe to give me a sign that I was on the right path.
My house sold 13 days later and now I’m sitting on my couch writing this and thinking “Holy SHIT! This is actually happening.” Indeed it is. Time to Bravely Walk Forward.
I hope you find some value in my words.