Owning My Story

Felt inspired to write tonight, which helped me come to a pretty big realization about myself and owning my story…even the less than shiny parts.

I find it tough sometimes to be honest about things that have happened to me in this life. I learned quickly that a lot of subjects make people super uncomfortable and in an effort to keep things from going super dark or from causing people to pity me, I tend not to dive into the deepest parts of my past. Now and then I’ll disclose things but there are only a handful of people in this world who truly know who I am and what I’ve been through.

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You Actually Like Sleeping On the Ground?

Well, I went camping. Yes, this diva slept on the ground and ate food cooked on a camp fire for 2 days at China Creek Campground in Port Alberni. A place I’ve never been doing an activity I’ve never done. What can go wrong?

It’s not a secret that I don’t like camping. I’m a bit of a diva, okay, maybe more that a bit of a diva. When kids my age were learning how to fish and hunt, I was learning how to order my favourite Starbucks drink. I bypassed playing on the monkey bars for reading a novel in the shade. Just last year I was teased for wearing mascara while swimming in the Nymph Falls bowls. In my defence, it was waterproof mascara.

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Am I Too Much For This World?

I can’t even begin to start counting the times I’ve felt too much for this world – too loud, too energetic, too broken, too dramatic, too proud.

I can’t even begin to start counting the times I’ve felt too much for this world.

  • Too loud
  • Too energetic
  • Too caring
  • Too broken
  • Too sensitive
  • Too big
  • Too ambitious
  • Too connected
  • Too empathetic
  • Too available
  • Too intrusive
  • Too bossy
  • Too dramatic
  • Too flighty
  • Too judgemental
  • Too proud
  • Too needy

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What I Learned in 2017

Review of 2017 – what I’ve learned over the past year while I moved my family from Edmonton, Alberta to Courtenay, BC, on Vancouver Island.

The girls and I have spent the last couple of days in PJ’s resting, snuggling, and being in each other’s company. Taking this down time has been really strange. You’d think that we’d have cabin fever and want to explore and do ALL THE THINGS, but no. We’re exhausted.

2017 was an absolute whirlwind. From December 2016 right up until January 2018, our life was a set of doing one thing after another, rushing around, and for me, tons and tones of emotional and mental labour as I worked through safely moving my little family 1300km across provinces.

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I’ve Hit a Dip in My Spirits

It’s been 8 months since my move to Courtenay on the gorgeous Vancouver Island. I’ve gone through all of the emotions and feelings you can imagine but right now, I’m feeling meh.

8 months. It’s been 8 months since my move here to Courtenay on the gorgeous Vancouver Island. In some ways it feels like I’ve been here a much shorter time and in others it feels like I’ve been here forever.

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The view outside my vet clinic

I’ve hit a bit of a dip in my spirits lately. When I first got here everything was magic and newness and adventures. Now, I’ve hit the find a dentist and a family doctor, schedule the car maintenance, figure out a daily routine and get back to work phase. And well, it’s necessary but kinda boring. 

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Date Jen Rollins

I’m new to Courtenay and the Comox Valley. I’ve tried online dating here but I didn’t find any romantic connections. Help me find an awesome guy.

My life is amazing. I have an incredible life with my two mermaids. I live in paradise – with the ocean, forest, lakes, and mountains surrounding me. I have a super cool purple house and a purple car (hmmm…I sense a theme here). I have wonderful talents and abilities that let me have the flexibility to really enjoy my life and make an impact in people’s lives. And I’m surrounded by the most amazing friends anyone could ask for.

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Women in Abusive Relationships – I Believe You

Women in abusive relationships, I’ve been where you are right now and I want you to know that I see you, I hear you, I believe you and I’d like to share some of my insights with you.

**This is written from my own perspective (cisgender, heteronormative). Domestic violence happens in all forms of intimate relationships and pronouns can be interchanged to reflect that.**

Dear Beautiful Being,

You may not know me, so I’ll introduce myself. My name is Jennifer Rollins and I was in an abusive relationship for 14 years.

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