Big Happy News

I have some big happy news, I’m starting a new role as a Digital Lead Generation Specialist at an awesome company in Cumberland, BC on Vancouver Island.

When I moved to the Comox Valley on Vancouver Island, I thought things would stay the same. I find this hilarious looking back on it now because I also thought things wouldn’t change when I had kids and well, I can tell you everything changed.

Other than being a mom, having a little Purple Scion, and my dog, everything changed this year. New location, one place to rent and one place I now own, new kitten, new bikes, new furniture, new friends and local support system, new online relationships with my existing friends versus Remedy, Tea Girl, and Cafe Haven, new solo mom duties, new websites, deepened spiritual abilities. It’s been a whirlwind of awesome and to continue down that path, I’m starting a new role!

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Safe is a Four Letter Word

Today I was asked what safety looked like for me and what it felt like. As a super visual and creative person, it’s one of the first time that I’ve been speechless. I couldn’t come up with a single idea

My head and heart are reeling. I’m 4 days into a 21 day raw vegan food and juice cleanse through this super awesome local Courtenay company called Rawthentic and one of the bonus pieces is emotional counselling to bring my physical body back into integration and flow.

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Stepping on the Gas Pedal

It’s time to free yourself from labels and boxes and live your life out loud – to follow your deepest dreams & desires. It’s YOUR time to Bravely Walk Forward.

Recently, I took a pause to get my new house together and catch my breath after such a huge, stressful and exciting few months and I needed it. I needed to slow down and gather my thoughts and open myself up to the energy of the Island and figure out who I am here.

The truth is, a lot has changed. I’ve shifted and really come into my own here. I’m lighter, happier and have taken the space to realize how far I’ve come and focused in on the wisdom and life lessons that comes with that. I even took a stepped back to celebrate all that I’ve accomplished so far (something that has been uncomfortable for me to do in the past) and I have to tell you, it feels great.

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Hitting the Pause Button

When I had my daughters, I made sure I got out of the house every day. Even with a two-day-old baby, I was walking around a mall (with painkillers). Even after I asked my ex-husband for a separation, I went back to work the next morning. I need a busy intervention.

When I had my daughters, I made sure I got out of the house every day. Even with a two-day-old baby, I was walking around a mall (with painkillers). Even after I asked my ex-husband for a separation, I went back to work the next morning. 

It comes as no surprise that took 2 months to sell my house, give away and sell everything in my 4 bedroom home, plan my move, come to the Island for a week to solidify my place to live and get affairs in order, take the girls to all of their appointments – dentist, doctor, optometrist and go to my own appointments, get my legal affairs in order, clean my house, cancel everything and move everything else, get into a relationship with an ex and then end it, and drive 2 days to get to Cumberland. All while running a couple of businesses, looking after my two young daughters 24 days of the month, hanging out with friends, writing, and working out at least 3 days a week.

My pattern is go-go-go-go-go-go-go-go and then a huge crash and burn. I’ve done full months without sleeping more than 3 hours a night, which has broken me down to a point where I got pneumonia twice…in both lungs. Under extreme stress, I will also lose my appetite and get TMJ so bad that I wake up with mouthfuls of blood from clenching and grinding. 

I bet this is the point where you think I’m going to tell you that my move has made all of these patterns disappear and that I’m doing so well. That I’ve found the secret to slowing down and being in the moment. Turns out, even being in one of the most beautiful places on Earth hasn’t slowed me down.

I just hit my first 60 days on Vancouver Island and my list of things I’ve accomplished is just as long as the one I wrote above. Even in the first 5 weeks I put a bid in on my dream house and days later, it was approved and the conditions were taken off. I’ve also added 4 new marketing clients, made awesome friendships, found an amazing babysitter, seen live music, got an addiction to buy/sell and 24-hour bidding sites, explored 10 different parks in the area, volunteered for the Cumberland Forest Society, started a pottery class, kept up this blog, and drank a LOT of coffee. All while being a solo parent with two businesses.

I’m fucking tired. Legit.

It’s time to re-pattern. I didn’t come here to get so sick I can’t enjoy this gorgeous place or time with my kids. I didn’t come here to move so fast I can’t breathe. I came here to start again. To be the phoenix coming out of ashes. To reinvent myself and to open my wings. I can’t do this at the pace I’m at and I’m scared of being forced to slow down with illness again.

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It’s time to slow down and heal. To focus within and deal with the things I moved past because I had to. My ability to shove down my emotions and trauma in order to keep showing up and moving forward has served me well. In a lot of cases, it kept me alive. I’m so grateful for this but it’s not needed anymore. I’m fully capable of dealing with my emotions, being vulnerable and raw, and giving myself the space to move through things as I’m in them. It’s time to rely on my power and the beautiful space I can find through mindfulness and connection.

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I’ve come to realize that things happen for me and not to me. I’m not the victim in my life anymore and I don’t need to shy away from the wisdom and strength this gives me. To honour this, I’m going to move through things in a less forceful way. I’m going to do what I want when I want to and not just because I’m scared of slowing down. I want to know what it’s like to wake up, keep my PJ’s on, and watch Netflix all day without guilt.

I’m giving myself a busy intervention. I’m going to stop myself each time I feel my old patterns coming up. I’m going to sleep when I want to and maybe even learn how to nap. I’m going to listen to my body and eat what I want, when I want to. I’m going to seek out a feeling of “lightness” and be fully open to experiences. I’m going to explore a life without force. I don’t even know what this looks like and I REALLY want to start planning and organizing it, but I need less on my “build the life I want” list (my renamed to-do list), not more.

Wish me luck!

Bravely Taking Jen Time Forward

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Open For Business

If you’re looking for an experienced digital marketing and business development consultant on Vancouver Island or anywhere in North America, I’m your girl.

Now that I have a routine and most of my to-do list is done, Build Create Grow is fully open for business!

If you’re new to this site, you may not know about my business and what makes me ridiculously happy. If you have a website and you want to make more money or attract amazing employees, you need me. I have over 18 years of experience in marketing and sales including:

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