So, what happened after the move, after buying my house – Matilda and after starting a new position at The Update Company? Honestly, something really weird happened. I guess it’s called contentment…”a state of happiness and satisfaction.”
In the past four months things have really turned around for all of us. My new position at Update went from a full-time contract to a full-time employment with a promotion to Director of Lead Generation. I have amazing coworkers and team members who I laugh with while getting huge results for our clients. It’s the type of environment that’s work hard, play hard but with the added bonus of everyone truly caring about each other.
I finished putting together all of the furniture and finishing touches in Matilda and I’m making a plan for getting the inside painted, the hardwood floors redone, and new couches. I’m getting used to the creaks in the flooring and the quirks of living in a house that was built during the Second World War.
The girls have been thriving and Tenesea is getting awards left, right and center for being a great student, friend, and ambassador for her school. Between her and Azalee, we have weekends full of birthday parties and play dates. They’re having so much fun and love our new home and life.
I have fantastic friends both back in Edmonton and here on the Island and a big support group. I feel blessed that so many people are willing to bring me food when I’m sick, watch my dog when I’m away, and text me “good morning, beautiful” to remind me that even with a 1300km distance, I’m still loved and remembered.
So, what do I have to complain about? Not much really. I mean, it would be awesome to meet someone rad to date, but I’m sure that will happen at the right time. I’m not worried.
I’m truly content. Happy, even. I’m safe and feel secure about things. I’m constantly healing and revealing more of my authentic self. I’m trying a ton of new things (including camping next weekend for the first time in 22 years), and not letting my old, negative patterns to take over. I’m simply allowing myself to just be content and to enjoy it. Even with as awesome as it is, I still struggle with it at times.
Part of me always wants to make the big jumps, to bring in more money, to look a certain way. to build an empire, to write a book, to walk the Camino, to plan the next trip, to find a partner. The other part of me wants to be in the moment, grateful for what I have, and to learn how to breathe deeply and be kinder to myself. As always, I know I am both of these sides and I get to integrate them together to create what I want in this life. Right now, I want to enjoy a beautiful, calm, and content Island summer with my mermaids and my friends. So, that’s what I’m going to do.
Bravely Being Content Forward